To everyone who’s ever thought I had too much to communicate

You might have thought, “Well how sweet, this girl just met me and opened her heart right up.”

Or maybe, “Doesn’t this girl know that she shares too much depth and her authentic nature so openly, nobody’s got time to respond to that in the way she does.”

Or maybe it was something completely different. I don’t know, I can’t read your mind. Maybe you don’t think about me at all.

But I couldn’t ever help myself. Because it’s just me and truth I see, and I promise I was being genuine, and I know some of it I probably shouldn’t have shared at all. I am learning.

Some of you might have wondered where I dropped off to…

I’ve been looking for people to meet me here in the intimate depths. Hopping around, engaging, putting myself out there, reaching out, sending texts to people saying I’m thinking about them and see them for who they are and love them so much. And it’s tough, all of you who don’t have the time to reply to me, you might think,

“Well doesn’t she have a partner for that? Doesn’t she have family members to be all gushy to like that? Why am I so special? What does she want from me?”

First of all, not really, and secondly, the reality is that to me, everyone is special, and to me, everyone is my family, and I respond to energy and only energy, my intuition grabbing onto a thread that resonates, seeing the depths of people, feeling the need to connect with them so they know how special I see they are. There’s not much else motive behind it.

But I’ve learned that there are many who don’t want to meet me there, because your energy is focused on other things in this world, and I don’t take it personally. I accept that. I won’t make you. I just can’t help but show up for the souls of people, regardless if their souls show up for me. That’s who I am. But I now know when to walk away if I feel it’s not best for us to be connected in the 3D - or if I’m meant to connect with others. I won’t keep knocking on the door when there’s no answer. I don’t see it as wrong or bad anymore.

Thank you to the ones who have been bold enough to meet me here, in these crazy honest depths, who are open to connect from an authentic space. To the ones who saw me open up and opened up deeply, too, allowing me into their circle of soul family. Replying to me consistently as if they know and see I’ve had a history of being invisible and isolated and shut down. You have supported my healing of intimacy and I will continue to see you and cherish and hold you for exactly who you are, without judgement. I have been working on being more grounded in the physical world so I can show up more physically for all of you, too, as I know that has always been a downfall of mine. I am not perfect.

And I have learned that I will never expect anyone to meet me, and I wish you all well on your journeys, wherever you go. I came here to meet all of you for a reason, yet it doesn’t always mean I get to keep you.

And that’s okay.

The love I feel for you remains the same, no matter what karma or Earth shenanigans have happened.

(But if you ever want to talk freely and openly, I am here.)