Black Centipede

Many centipede species lack eyes. As a result, centipedes rely on their other senses to navigate their dark habitats. So, they can come to you as an omen to open your mind to possible psychic connections you might have with others. Just like the centipede doesn’t see, you too could rely less on your eyes and more on your instincts. -symbolsandsynchronicity.com

Last night I dreamt there was a black centipede on my arm. I looked closely at it, freaked out, and went to flick it off of me. That was when I was startled awake.

Again, not getting a lot of sleep at night lately.

I can’t say it’s the weirdest dream I’ve had in the past year. Let’s go back to the night I dreamt of a woman’s murder, and then I looked to my right, and saw her as a shadow figure that was moving right next to my face. That was freakier, I promise you.

I immediately looked up the meaning of centipede when I first woke up, and I found a lot of different things. One was even talking about centipedes protecting the dead, and I am doing a lot of mediumship in my life right now. But I’m still unsure as to what it could mean for me, if it does mean anything. I can’t even remember the last time I saw a centipede.

Haunted by my Karma

The new moon brought up parts of me that I like to forget about, and I think it did so to remind me that there is still much for me to forgive.

It took something from me, and I wanted to scream. It brought back all of the times I’ve felt small because of other people. But that was the point. I release those people and karmic contracts with love, I send them away with light. I am not holding onto them anymore. I forgive them, and what they did.

I also understand that I am accountable for my life and the situations I created and how others were hurt by me, too, in these situations. It is not only others I need to forgive. It is also myself, for not creating boundaries with these people.

Boundaries

Boundaries is the big theme of this month for me. I remember having a conversation with someone not too long ago about boundaries, and about how, to create boundaries, you actually have to know who you are and what your needs are. That’s why I’ve been having such a hard time, because as a Pisces, I’m defining myself as so many things. I say I’m one thing, and then change to another, not knowing what my boundaries are because I’m unsure of what I want or need in the moment or coming moments.

So maybe the answer for me is, identifying who I am in the moment. I can be me and have boundaries and understand that they might change in 3 minutes and then adjust if I need to. I don’t just put up boundaries, or tear them down.

Being an energetic soul with a human body is so weird sometimes, knowing how it all fits together. I trust myself, though, to know what I need to do and when. I trust myself more and more each day, living by spirit. The things I do must look so nonsensical to other people, but they make total sense to me, because of the guidance I’m getting from energy realms.

It’s hard to explain. It’s hard to prove. It’s part of being a starseed. You’re moved by energy more than anything else, and it’s almost impossible to stop.

I’ve tried to describe the feeling to others many times who have never been this way, and it’s difficult. I just have the understanding that we all incarnate on earth for different reasons and with different energy for different purposes, so I have no judgment. I just continue to move closer to the divine essence of me, regardless.