dancing with my shadows

Wow, this month of September was quite intriguing to say the least. I was not expecting a month so full of introspection and diving deep into pieces of myself that I haven’t looked at in a really long time. I can say, though, that it was a very valuable check in on where I’m at, and how I’m growing.

Everything that happened the way it did this month was so necessary, and I trusted in whatever intensity came up for me as energy I needed to process to be able to align with what is next for me on my life path. Even though I experienced rejection after rejection, and felt the fear of it all in my body, I kept looking for alignment. I kept looking at the synchronicity, and the pieces that were working and moving with me. I kept dancing with my shadow, and then, all on the same DAY, to my absolute amazement, everything aligned perfectly, better than I ever could have planned or thought. That’s why I believe in the magic.

It was not easy to trust that it would happen that way for so long, when I didn’t know where the next answer was going to come from. That’s the whole trick, right? You think you know where your life is headed. You think you can plan for what is best. You think you can find instant solutions you feel will work for what you’re moving through, and then play the game of reaction to try to make it all work out in a way you have some kind of control over, to feel safe.

Or, you can tune into the energy and what it’s telling you, and watch as exactly what you’re looking for happens before your eyes. You can be okay with losing money for a couple weeks to get the job that best suits your situation. You can relax into working on your book because you have a ton of creative inspiration at the moment, even if you feel like you should be focusing on building a new life for yourself. You can trust in the flow. You can trust yourself. You can trust a collaborator, instead of falling into trauma cycles, and deeply connect on a creative project that lights up your soul.

I’m happy to be dancing with my shadows and living as someone tapped into the energy of it all, creating my life experience based on what shows up for me daily. I didn’t plan for any of this, and yet, I am so happy and excited to be moving into this beautiful new chapter. I thank the inspiring energy workers who supported me this month, reminding me that this isn’t about doing what I’ve done before, or doing what makes sense to other people in society.

This is about growth, and truthfully, as dreams I’ve always wanted to come true begin to take shape right now, I am so happy I have trusted in the process. I am so happy it got me right here, with people I feel safe with, a house I feel at home in, doing work that is aligned with my inner truth. Sometimes I really feel like it’s all just too good to be real.