take all of me
Do I get all dressed up and do performances to songs by Billie Holliday for myself in my room like I’m doing imaginary play like a child? Yes. Who has recently inspired it? My glam Libra friend I live with who does it all the time. I am learning a lot from this beautiful soul who expresses herself so freely. I have stifled my voice and my truth for much of my life, and being around her energy, pure expressions seem to just burst out of me, as if they just absolutely cannot sit dormant within me anymore.
That’s the thing about these energy bonds we activate with one another, and why they are so different with every single person you meet. Your energies are connecting in different patterns and rhythms, because of your energetic makeups, and so while you may feel like sitting around and not speaking up with one person in your life, you may meet another who inspires you to roar like a lion. It’s all quite inspiring, if you ask me.
This theme is big on my mind, as I reflect on my close relationships during Mercury retrograde in Libra. I feel that many of us expect to show up a very specific way with every single person in our lives, as if we like to have a handle on who we are and how we behave, and how we engage with other people. From an energetic perspective, I personally don’t think it works like that, which is why so much communication is always needed with others as you learn deeper truths about your experience and how it relates to interacting with them.
I met a girl the other day who I was able to express my full authentic self to, and that was my first time ever hanging out with her. I’ve known another woman for years who, no matter how hard I try, I cannot share past a very specific point with her, and I am slowly learning why, from learning more about her, and seeing how our shadows are the same in a very specific way.
These are the divine clues, as what we see in others are what we see in ourselves. The hints lie in the energy. What is it about the other person that you may be scared of? What are the parts of them that make you feel uncomfortable, and why? If other feelings come up while around them, like jealousy, what parts of yourself are you missing that you could integrate to feel more whole in yourself? These are the beautiful mirrors, and how we all help each other home on the soul-growth path. We all need each other, and boundaries are needed as you navigate relationships, definitely, but it’s all about how you see it, and how you choose to show up in relationship, that makes all the difference.
There’s my two cents for today, I’m choosing, more often than not, to give others all of me, and to see who sticks around after that. I am having a lot of fun with myself these days, creatively expressing so freely and without a care. There’s a part of me who just wants everybody else out there to do that, too.
