Lua Raine 4/27/24 Lua Raine 4/27/24

I’ll just do it myself

Lua Raine 4/21/24 Lua Raine 4/21/24

multiple homes

Lua Raine 3/26/24 Lua Raine 3/26/24

death of feeling

Lua Raine 3/1/24 Lua Raine 3/1/24

tired

Lua Raine 2/26/24 Lua Raine 2/26/24

the illusion of being healed

Telling yourself stories about all the things you’ve seemingly mended, only to come face-to-face with the harsh realities that these are things that are just a part of your energy body and you oscillate around them over time. It’s not about “healing them so they go away,” no, that’s not what we came here to do. We live with them, and expand. We notice these parts, and they get smaller as we grow awareness of the vast shiny soul that we are.

Lua Raine 1/23/24 Lua Raine 1/23/24

“it’s the confident ones that fall in”

“Oh Bri, don’t you know it’s the confident ones that fall in?” A tree spirit lovingly mentioned to me as I walked along my favorite waterfall trail in Washington alone on a Sunday morning in 2019. I had done this hike dozens of times, but nature seemed to be speaking very loudly to me today.

Lua Raine 1/3/24 Lua Raine 1/3/24

no longer the strong one

I am done with the sharp edges — the rigid surfaces. You will not find me seeking the upmost knowledge, or reaching the loftiest goal. I will not be shouting from the mountaintops about anything that I know.

Lua Raine 12/14/23 Lua Raine 12/14/23

$2.22

I once venmo’d a woman $2.22 because she let me use her room to cry at a party.

Lua Raine 11/26/23 Lua Raine 11/26/23

yes, I’ll listen to the badass secret service agent

Are you in service or self? And why don’t you move between the two? It’s okay to move between the two. There are moments to be in service. There are moments to be in self.

Lua Raine 11/13/23 Lua Raine 11/13/23

with a voice as bright as the sun

“Well, ok, so let’s talk about it for you. What gets you out of bed in the morning?” She brightly questioned, and I sighed, going silent for a long while, lost in my thoughts. She sat in silence on the other end with me.

Lua Raine 11/8/23 Lua Raine 11/8/23

wake up call from my body

Thus began my intimidating healing journey of Jiu Jitsu.

Lua Raine 10/8/23 Lua Raine 10/8/23

“Are you sure you want to plead guilty to this?”

Fight for your worth. It matters.

Lua Raine 9/30/23 Lua Raine 9/30/23

everybody does it

It leads me to ask the question: did I experience worse things in a past life? And if I did, am I doing really really good right now? Or the scarier question, am I absolutely traumatizing myself on Earth for no reason when I could just be sitting on a cloud somewhere with absolutely no pain at all somehow?

Lua Raine 9/15/23 Lua Raine 9/15/23

jane of all trades

“Did I eat today? Did I stretch or take vitamins? Did I look at my planner? Did I accomplish any of my routine daily tasks? Did I water my plant? Did I pet a dog? DID I DRINK WATER?”

Lua Raine 8/25/23 Lua Raine 8/25/23

Maybe the strongest people are actually incredibly weak

Because chances are you know nothing at all, and are just waking up.

Lua Raine 8/22/23 Lua Raine 8/22/23

I would have prosecuted you back then

If I had known you’d affect me this way. That I’d be having numerous nightmares of that night, that it would seem nearly impossible to get you out of me, or to experience healthy intimacy.