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the illusion of being healed
Telling yourself stories about all the things you’ve seemingly mended, only to come face-to-face with the harsh realities that these are things that are just a part of your energy body and you oscillate around them over time. It’s not about “healing them so they go away,” no, that’s not what we came here to do. We live with them, and expand. We notice these parts, and they get smaller as we grow awareness of the vast shiny soul that we are.
“it’s the confident ones that fall in”
“Oh Bri, don’t you know it’s the confident ones that fall in?” A tree spirit lovingly mentioned to me as I walked along my favorite waterfall trail in Washington alone on a Sunday morning in 2019. I had done this hike dozens of times, but nature seemed to be speaking very loudly to me today.
no longer the strong one
I am done with the sharp edges — the rigid surfaces. You will not find me seeking the upmost knowledge, or reaching the loftiest goal. I will not be shouting from the mountaintops about anything that I know.
yes, I’ll listen to the badass secret service agent
Are you in service or self? And why don’t you move between the two? It’s okay to move between the two. There are moments to be in service. There are moments to be in self.
with a voice as bright as the sun
“Well, ok, so let’s talk about it for you. What gets you out of bed in the morning?” She brightly questioned, and I sighed, going silent for a long while, lost in my thoughts. She sat in silence on the other end with me.
everybody does it
It leads me to ask the question: did I experience worse things in a past life? And if I did, am I doing really really good right now? Or the scarier question, am I absolutely traumatizing myself on Earth for no reason when I could just be sitting on a cloud somewhere with absolutely no pain at all somehow?
jane of all trades
“Did I eat today? Did I stretch or take vitamins? Did I look at my planner? Did I accomplish any of my routine daily tasks? Did I water my plant? Did I pet a dog? DID I DRINK WATER?”
Maybe the strongest people are actually incredibly weak
Because chances are you know nothing at all, and are just waking up.
I would have prosecuted you back then
If I had known you’d affect me this way. That I’d be having numerous nightmares of that night, that it would seem nearly impossible to get you out of me, or to experience healthy intimacy.
